Sunday I had
the opportunity to speak at church. They assigned me to speak on
Self-Reliance in general, so on Sunday I spoke about both spiritual and
temporal self-reliance. I have noticed a very definite improvement in
how I give talks. I used to rely on a prepared talk, but now I can speak
without even using notes. I actually DID prepare something on paper to
speak at for the talk, and I had it on hand when I was speaking, but not
once did I need to refer to it. Instead, I was able to speak my own
mind on the matter. I think the preparation just helped me to have what
to say in mind and establish a direction to go for the talk. Even after
preparing the talk, I realized that there were many other things I could
speak on pertaining to the subject, like more scriptural examples. I
wished I could have spoken more about these, but because of time and
the fact that an interpreter needed to translate what I was saying to
the congregation, I could only say so much. People came up to me
afterwards thanking me for the talk. One of the members of the District
Presidency came up and said that he wished I was staying for a couple
more weeks so that they could have me speak at the district conference.
Such
was last week. I also bore my final testimony in Zone Meeting and
related my experiences as a missionary to the Zone. I wanted to really
help encourage them to do right by the Lord.
I'm
not sure if I will have time to write to you next week. How my travel
plans for Monday next week seem to make it so that I won't be able to
afford time to write you about this week and so on. I think I will just
take the time to share a few reflections about my Mission.
If
I had been writing this about a year ago, I would have said that the
theme of my mission - or rather the takeaway from my mission was
obedience. Now I see a far bigger picture than that. It's not so much as
obedience as it is about change. President Erickson once taught me about
the importance of change as a missionary. He basically told about how
all missionaries need to experience change to spiritually progress as
children of God. It also reminded me of something that Elder Tad R.
Callister said one time, that we aren't just trying to change our
behaviour, but our nature as people. I would like to think that I have
experienced in part a change of that nature, right down to the very
simple things. Before I left on mission, I wouldn't have described one
who either prayed or read scriptures with much intent. It had been many
years that I had regularly prayed vocally, and I could never say that I
"feasted upon the words of Christ". Imagine how all that can change when
you go on a mission. My Heavenly Father has quite literally thrown a
lot at my direction to encourage me to humble myself and change my
habits as a person. Can I say that I'm absolutely perfect in these
things? No, but I do now see the importance of scripture study and
prayer. I especially have learned the importance of praying vocally.
When you slow down and really take time to express your heart to the
Lord, you really think things out more and there grows a much stronger
connection between each other. And what can I say about scripture study?
Well, it looks like a rainbow vomited all over my scriptures with
markings and notes. I can say that I have a stronger love for the
scriptures than ever before.
Of all the things I
have learned on mission though, the most important thing I think I have
learned is humility. I believe it is at the core of everything that we
do, what makes or breaks our salvation. You have to be humble to have
faith in Christ. You have to have humility to be able to obey the
commandments. You need to have humility to repent. I've seen
missionaries whose entire experiences weighed upon whether they humbled
themselves or not. Those he changed for the better definitely humbled
themselves and submitted themselves to the will of the Lord. Those who
didn't went through the motions. They still had a great time, but they
got nothing lasting out of it. I hope that I'm one of those missionaries
that fall under the former category. Through my mission, my Heavenly
Father has made it more than known that I have my own weaknesses and
flaws, and I know now that I must be willing to submit to His will.
I
am absolutely thankful for this experience. I think it has helped make
me become a better man. I really hope the principles I have learned here
will help me for the rest of my life.
I'll see you soon.
Elder Massey